Camouflage..

I've asked my friends, "It's been two weeks that my heart is shattered, can you believe it?" well they simply said no, because I don't look like a brokenhearted person and they said then you put a good act in that. Well, I simply deny my broken heart and keep moving on but then at some point I sit down at the corner of my room listening to some sad musics then I realize that my heart is broken and it still is. I want to deny it but it seems like it keep reaching me out, calling me so that I will embrace it.

It's October and it's a little bit rainy here, the other day I was run in the big rain then I don't know my eyes feels so warm, my lip feel so numb, my heart beating so fast, and I keep running in the rain. Then I stop at a little road where no ones there, I walk so slow in the rain, somehow it feels hurt and I can't forgive that "ghost". That person keep broke my heart like it's a Lego, once it break you can easily put it back together. No, it's not like that.

God, I'm broken. Please help me. Everything seems so bad right now, my dream have been crushed then I build it up again then you destroy it again for the million times. I just want you to know that it hurt but somehow you don't want to understand, I finally start to feel like what we have is real, then again it's just a fairy tale. And fairy tale didn't exist, it's only in books, dreams and child dreams.

I even go to this city, just because I want to stay away from you but then you follow me here, you always showing up in my face.

The thing is, I don't want to show my sorrow to his painful yet disgusting world, I need to keep strong so that I can survive.

My heart is broken is not because of you, maybe it's because my love for you...

And I will now hiding from you...

#Xo

#STAYSTRONG