Dud..Dub..Duh!

I'm gonna be blunt.
Dear Indonesian stop ruining other people masterpiece, an instance dub with your weird voice in every movies and soundtrack.
I personally hate this because first of course bad dub mimicking, I mean seriously? Where's the value of that? Children need to learn English and reading, I mean they can read the subtitle and then listen to the English as well with the right pronouns and also some people can learn the daily conversation and mean word, such as bitch, dickhead, shithead, etc. Let's just not let them know how the foreigners wear clothes and another thing but also they need to know how to communicate, isn't it ironic people just know "How are you?" "What's your name?" "Where are you from" and for God sake "Yes/No", they even didn't say it on the right pronouns, gimme a break dubbers. At least if you want to dub, please do it on something that not to..just say wow.
Second is that I hate dubbed soundtrack on some cartoons, if they're in English, let it be! Don't ruin American songbook just because you people love to, I know that maybe you're not that creative by making soundtrack but at least don't change the whole language, like I said. Use subtitle, it help a lot. It's just suck when I listen to the kind of songs, hurt my ears and make me want to smash the tv.
I also agree when you guys using dubs, because it can help people who cannot understand foreign language because they're too lazy to learn them, but please don't feed this folks too much with dubs. Hey, next you're going to dub other people's love? Get real.

High Mountain, Deepin Soul

So this week I've been like go there and there it's because I'm bored and need to get off.

The first I went is Tasik, my birthplace. It feel so nostalgic and I feels like I am returning to my body (fyi I'm a lost soul). Visit a lot of nostalgic place such as Citapen and their "street" food. When I went there I also visit some ruined place like there is no one there, only memories from past. It's so silence and silence. It feel so good when I'm there.

Then I went to Bandung as in Paris-Van-Java-Bandung. There are a lot of things interest me, discount everywhere. Hey, I can be a little pricey bitch for some reason. It refreshing when I sat on a cafe just me and coffee and iPad and music. All I'm doing is just listened to the sad sad music while I'm stir my cup hoping it will drill a hole to the ground then I will bury my self and be lonely forever in the hole downside the noisy city.

At last I went to a mountain at Cikajang, it's in Garut. I went there with mum and dad, and then with mum. They have sort of business there and I went exploring by myself. On the first day, I am so thrilled because I know it will be great, but guess what? It is great, it was cloudy, foggy and  little bit rainy but for it was ahmazing. Ok, I went to the hill and there are a little path, muddy path, on the right side there are lot of weeds and I believe there are lot of snake and on the left side there is cliff that led down to the very bottom of the hill, I have to be careful on walk there, by "Bismillah" I walked up and in the middle of the path I found my self stuck on the mud, plus it's raining! I am to afraid to move because first, I don't wanna fall into the snake pit and second I don't want my parent find me in the real pit, literally. So I decided to standing silently there waiting for someone else to help me. Then now I learned something, never use flip flop to mountain, don't wear summer outfit.

But after all of things, I feel something and I know what I need. Challenge. Yes that's what I need, I need to be in something dangerous yet guarantee my safety. I need something that can beat my heart again and live! Yes, ALIVE. My heart is not beating, in fact I am dead inside, I don't know if this is because I have too many sins, but I am dead inside out.

Xo

Nicknames

So this noon I just want to post labels that I give to people.

Please take a note that this is very offensive post, don't take it personal. Just having fun by my self.

Here we go.

1. Shithead

2. Manslut

3. Woolyhead

3. Jumping Cullen

4. Black Slime

5. Train Wrecker

6. Miley's Cyrus Tongue

7. Backstabber

8. Clint Eastwood's Chair

9. Needy Eyes

10. Looney Baloney

11. Man With Boobs

12. Stray Human

13. Gay Face

14. Asian version of Honey Boo Boo

15. Huey's Ass

16. Bossy Pants

17. Sluttie Barbie

18. Thrown Broom-stick

19. Hobit

20. Lame-ass

21. Creep Stranger

22. Smart-ass

23. Hanging Wrecking Ball

24. She-male

25. Cold Hearted Bitch

26. Bald Samson

27. Baboon Ass

28. Boobs Monster

29. Soccer Ball Face

30. Mr. Not-So-Cool

31. Human Crisp

32. Walking Time Bomb

33. Fart

34. Cat's Puke

35. Meerkat Face

36. Sleepy Eyes

37. Non-Aired Walking Dead

38. Non-Credited Zombie

Ok, that's all for now, I know that when people read this it makes me like a jerk but hey this is my life. Don't give me your shit. I actually never called someone with these nicknames because people here are so...let's just say sensitive. Just keeping in my mind but now I post it.

Well that's for now. Will do on part II.

Xo

Ps

I did this because bullying is for losers

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So it's been like a silent blog, to be honest I am little lazy to post or whatever. But now, breakdown time.

First, I really appreciate that new years no a bummer for this time, last time? Shit happens, worst shit ever.

Second, I really planned well for this year like debate things and whole EFEC's thing but then Nicki Minaj's Starship lay on my head, struck down to my goddamn brain and stir everything like a shit. Exchange. I am not expected that, well I kinda pray for it on September and my prayer was like "If this is the right time, then let me be God." well this is His answer, I mean Dude, seriously? Anyway that's how He role in my life, in everybody life maybe. And then  lot of people start to asking me craps and some people said bad things like they know what's really going, I was cared about their shits but then I think whatever they just don't know what it feels like to be in my position so now I am enjoying God's answer.

For people who talked about me, I'd say is that your best? Give me your best shot bitches because maybe from now on I won't take shits like those anymore.

Oh back to my past-plan-for-2014, I got kicked from EFEC. Bummer. I was kinda upset because I really love the club but shit happen and now I know what it feels like to get fired. To be honest, I feels like a jerk but somehow I also feel that they stared me with you-are-so-guilty-stared. But then again, after few days trying to process the whole bizare thing I don't care I mean the EFEC-effect still on my mind but I have to let go. Well that's the different between someone like me and some people like ou, you trying to move on from someone? I am trying to move on from something that abstractly exist. Nerd allert. So I guess it's XOXO.

And I am officially break up with my gf. On December. Nuff said.

That's it my plan for this year, it's only one plan but I have so much idea. Now I am reconstructing my damn plan again.

The things is when I planned everything so well even when I'm already on that plan, there must be an invincible string that pulls out everything in this universe.

I take the lesson, I need to let go something or someone that I really love, I really care and I guess that's how life going. And after I'm out, I won't be seeing you again. So goodbye EFEC, I love you and last year was extravagant for me, I will never forget you (and everybody on you). :')

Xo

Movie La Talk

Hiya guys, just wanna share some thoughts now.

Movies, well everybody loves movies (including me), my favorite is horror movies. I found it interesting, I don't know maybe for some people it scary as hell but for me it's interesting even though I am such a scaredy cat sometimes. For example, when I'm not feeling well, all I wanna do is watch some ghosts flying around or killing people at some point (irrational though). That's what I thought...

But...

Did you know that movie can be a good starter to make a relationship, social link or whatever. For instance, someone spill that he/she/whatever loves fantasy genre movies and then suddenly someone said "oh have  ever watch...bla...bla...bla" yep that's how it start. And then the conversation will never stop unless someone cut the crap and got bored. Or another example if you're on the move to be closed with someone you just take him/her/it to the movies and then...you know, suddenly he/she/it understand where it goes. Interesting isn't? Well, at least for me it is.

But, a movies sometimes can be representative of our feeling. INSTANCE. You're broken heart, someone just left you with your heart pieces that looks like crap and then you suddenly want to watch The Notebook, then you will just cry all the time until the movie ends. Well, at least it happen for gals. For me? Since I never feel broken heart (by a lovers) I simply just watch horror movies but that doesn't mean I'm hurt. I am heartless.

So, I love movies. Especially horror. (But lately I love classics)

Note, it feels weird when you see your own writing on some cool magazine. Is it?

Xo

Turn Off

Death, everybody scared of death. It's funny though, why did they scared? Death is friendly, it removes all the pain in this life. All of them. Being dead is cold and dark. It comfortable, at least for me. I like being dead, being insensitive and all, I don't have to care about every shit that been going on around me, people won't notice anyway.

Sometimes I always pray to God to turn off my heart, so the sun. But then I realize it's a ridiculous prayers. I just don't wanna feel hurt anymore, I can't actually. Sometimes I cut my hand with a scissor or something sharp, I didn't feel anything. Am I dead? Not yet I guess, even in rain my tears won't stop coming. I also always think, "what the hell is wrong with me", then my other self answer "whatever, just live on". Can actually a walking dead boy live? Doubt it.

I don't know why my feelings are gone, I might be pretend to laugh and all but deep inside there is nothing. No flowers, sun or wind or clouds, all deep inside is just a dark place, empty with no light at all. Maybe if a cut my arm a raining blood will fall, but no. Still, there is no pain at all.

How did I get here? Is it because of him? The that still haunted every single day, every time I breath, every blink I had. I am haunted. I missed him, but I can't. Bring him back to life just caused me pain and sorrow. He need to be killed and buried away. I give everything to him but that's that. No more.

Please, keep me dead like this. I don't wanna live...

XIII

In The Middle Of This Person, There's Still Human

Heartless, that's what I think I had inside of me or who I think I am, a heartless person. Well have you ever feel like you don't give a damn to every shits that happen in this universe? Well, I always feel that way almost like all the time even I don't give a crap about my future, call me careless or whatever but I just really don't care. One thing that I believe is God already "blueprinting" my whole life, well as long as I try first I won't regret it, never.

But here's the thing, even I stop caring about things I probably still sensitive for every inches that happen in my life, for example I still feel annoyed when two people start whispering at each other without realizing that I am there with them and then those people are just kept going and its's like they just covering me up but my ass. Totally not cool, then I do that to someone and what do I got? That person is like angry angry, I hate it tough when I have to be so careful with other people's feeling but then at the same time they don't give a crap about mine but guess what? I don't care about that, I won't take any credits from that, I always thought "whatever bitchess".

Sometimes I don't get people, I mean they get panic about certain things even unimportant stuffs, I mean chill up a little bit would ya? Well, things happen you just need to stop worrying. I do panic like a lot, I used to but then my mum teach me not to worry with material things because in the end they will just crushed in the doomsday. I am not religious but I don believe in things like that.

Well, everyone told me that I am too "relaxed" in this life, for example I haven't finished my homework and I ran late at the class and hey I still can smile. See? I don't care. I am gonna die anyway. I know that maybe some of you think that my way of life right now is so so bad, but whatever dudes.

The point is even I am careless, heartless, or even I smile, laughing, or whatever I still can feel hurt. But I bet you guys won't even realize it, because I smart hiding everything. Including your secrets, even if you don't know it...

Xo